Some of you might know that a few years back, I left a job in law enforcement. Let me be clear here, I loved my job. I had many responsibilities and tasks to do each day (I’m a busy body, this is a good thing). I regularly had the opportunity to get to meet new people. Some influential, some I prayed for. But one thing I didn’t love, was that this job had me losing my grip on hope. I was questioning every bit of faith I had. I was challenged to see the good, when most days I was just surrounded by the bad. I loved my job. But the negativity sure was hard. I actually wrote this post a few years ago, while I was knee deep in this job, and the chaos that comes with it. But, out of sight, out of mind is entirely applicable. I’m no longer surrounded by negativity, and I see the world differently now; as if it doesn’t exist. So did I really find a new way to have faith in humanity? Not really. I changed my view of the world by changing the lens through which I see it. I found faith in humanity again, by choosing a new humanity to surround myself with.
So, you’ve lost your faith in humanity? You don’t know the half of it. I’m surrounded by people everyday that leave me questioning; What happened to you? Why did you choose this? Did you choose this? Who let you do this to yourself? Where’s your faith? So one thing I’ve decided to do lately is to stop questioning. Stop wondering. And stop thinking I’ll ever figure it out.
But then I got to thinking… Where is their faith? Where is their hope? And where is their drive to succeed? I believe that all people are fundamentally good; yes… I still fully believe that. After all I’ve seen, the people I’ve met… I still believe that all people have a heart that was made for love. But here we are, with people that don’t know where to start; people that don’t know the next step. Who did this to them? Who set them up for failure? Who helped them make the first bad choice? Who stole their faith?
If I’m surrounded by anywhere from 16-95 of these people at all times; I’m left with that many hopeless souls to hope for. That many hearts to have faith in. That many futures that could change, if someone hadn’t helped them make that first mistake. I didn’t get where I am alone. I had help. I had people steer me in the right direction. Why did no one do that for them?
So I’ve stopped questioning. Stopped thinking that their hearts and minds will change. And in the meantime I need to just radiate hope, faith, and the possibility for success. I think that’s the best we can do.
A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another. John 13:34-35